Sunshine

This week I have been thinking a lot (shocker). And the more I think, the more I learn about myself.

Here are a few of my thoughts:

1. As I have gotten older, it gets harder to let new people in my life. But it is important to let God bring those people to me.

2. There are a lot of people that talk out both sides of their mouth. That is something I cannot control, but I can control my actions.

3. When those close to me tell me I can do something...they mean it (and it is important to listen).

Do you sense a pattern in these thoughts? In my mind, these all circle around to self confidence and trust. As for me, these are two of the most difficult things to figure out as a human being. Maybe not for everyone, but I think a lot of people would agree. As women, I think we can trust our "gut feeling" on just about anything. That is one thing I am having to learn to do. 

This week, I was reminded me of how true this statement is: "People come in (and out) of your life for a reason." They may not necessarily stay in your life forever, but in some way that person impacts who you are and why you have become the person you are today. Some people may just be brought into our lives to make us stronger and to help us grow. 

Everyday Charlie tells me how beautiful I am or how smart I am. Everyday my mom tells me how strong of a woman I am. Not that I didn't ever believe them because I trust them both with my Maisey and Maxi :) so of course I believe that they mean it! I just didn't have enough confidence to believe it for myself. Today its an "ah-ha" kind of day. The sun is shining today, but it may not be tomorrow. Nonetheless, it's up to me to feel like the sun is shining from the inside out everyday. 

My happy place where the sun always shines. Happy 4th--you can find us at the beach!

God's "Calling"

A few of my dear friends were in town from Indiana this weekend. We had a wonderful time, and I think it made me miss them more once they headed back to Indiana. But nonetheless, one of my friends summed up the weekend perfectly by saying, "It rejuvenated my soul." That is truly what it did for me.

No matter how stressful or how difficult grad school was when I lived in Indiana (and obviously where I met these wonderful people), these two special women never failed to give me conversation that warmed my heart and soul. This weekend, it took me back to those late night Indiana conversations, heart-felt and sincere words, something I had missed from these two friends.

Of course, I get all of those things daily from husband...except they are Tennessee conversations :). He is the one person in life that can actually make me complete and make my heart whole. Being a young married couple, it does make me realize that I have a lot to learn (even though it's really hard for me to say out loud that I don't know something!). I have been through a whole lot in my life, but God shows me everyday that I can get better. I can, and with time I will be better and better each passing day for my husband that I'm 100% sure God made specifically with me in mind. Props to the Man upstairs.

I say all this to say that our "girl talk" led to the questions, "What is my calling in life? How do you define what a calling actually is?" With just about everything in life, there are many different ways to look at one topic, one word, one incident. Do any two people ever see one thing the same way? Maybe not. But that's what makes us unique. I am pretty clear in the fact that I have not yet found my calling. I think I know what I want it to be...but is that really what it is? I know one day God will show me, but I just don't think I'm quite ready yet.

From Carbine to Hammer, from Indiana back to Tennessee, God always takes you where you need to be.